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This is my testimony - my testimony of faith and lack thereof; of the rising and falling of hopes and dreams; of beliefs and disbelief's; of tremendous heartache and human folly; of reaching out and stepping out when all I want at times is to is pull back and step away. At the age of 30 I was diagnosed with a very rare neurological condition called Post-traumatic Syringomyelia (PTS). Please visit my post on PTS. One of my goals is to increase awareness of this terminal condition. Broken to Grace is not yet released. Follow this blog to receive an email when the final release date is announced. God bless, Ronda

Thursday, November 18, 2010

For the Love of God

We can't out run the wisdom, plans, or will of God...
so why is it that so many of us spend our lives trying to?
And why do so many of us want to?
For along with all of these things also comes His unfailing love, mercy and grace.
...Accept all that He gives to us, including His Word, and live this life with Joy in your heart no matter your circumstance.


  1. Hello, I read about everything.

    Live every moment of happiness, even if the pain is great, always something to look, feel and share love with someone.

    I wish the book be successful and that your time in this world be filled with love and light of the L-rd.

    "May your days be as sweet as honey"

  2. Hi Isha,
    Thank you, sincerely, for taking the time to read through all of this. (quite a lot!) You seem like such a beautiful person in many ways. You're words are soft and kind.
    God bless you,

  3. I do not know where to start, nor what to say. When one has your health, one cannot imagine what it is like to be really, really terribly ill.
    All I can think of in a case like this is, if ever something like this has to happen in my house, let it be me to go first, and not one of my kids, nor my wife. And I am sure you will agree with me. Not that it makes it any easier, but in my case, I've had a full and not too short life, almost 50, and if I have to think, my mom only got as far as 42 before she passed away, then I am blessed already.

    Something else that would make me feel better is that if I can find enough mercy in His opinion to be allowed into paradise, then I would gladly go. There is nothing on earth really to keep me here, and once one passes on, there is no time really, coz it is eternity. Time stops, or becomes non existent, not sure exactly which, but I think your loved ones will be with you before you can miss them. If I do not make sense, please forgive me, no one knows about these things unless you have experienced it, and if you have, either no one believes you, or you are not here anymore to tell the story.

    Ronda, my prayers will be with you, as long as you believe that no matter what any doctor tells you, nothing, but nothing is impossible to God, so stay positive and have faith.

    My best wishes, thanks for following me on BF, and God bless.


  4. Colin,

    I'm going to quote you here because I can't beleive that you wrote what you have - and thank you btw.
    "...there is no time really, coz it is eternity. Time stops, or becomes non existent, not sure exactly which, but I think your loved ones will be with you before you can miss them. If I do not make sense, please forgive me, no one knows about these things unless you have experienced it, and if you have, either no one believes you, or you are not here anymore to tell the story."

    First of all, this makes so much sense to me that I want to know how it is that it makes sense to you. This knowledge is second, or possibly first, nature to me. I have PTS because I was the victim of a young mans psychotic episode. He was 19, I was 11. He ran me down in his Chevy Blazer as I was riding my bicycle. A metal spike from the front of his Blazer was driven 2 inches into my brain and I was pronounced dead. This is not your typical "I died for a minute" tale. And I won't go into it any further here. It is sufficient for me to say - that this is how I know that what you were trying to say above it true. There is no time, there is no waiting, there is no wondering even.
    I didn't begin reading the bible or going to church for many years after this experience - and of course have since learned that the bible teaches us these things about death as well. It is amazing to me how many of us can't read this part of the Bible as the truth - but accept everything else. But I think that as humans, it is so difficult for us to acknowledge, absorb, or understand how we could die and not directly go to heaven or hell - or that if we don't that we won't be knowingly waiting.
    I'm here to say - We won't be knowingly waiting for the second coming of Christ to raise us up. Time will in essence cease to exist when our earthly bodies die. And we will be resting and immersed in God's amazing love - a love that we will immediately recognize and not question with the human minds we now have. Our human mind - and all the questions and confusions and perceived knowledge, dies with our bodies. Thank God for that! This is my firm belief from what I experienced and was gifted to bring back with me.

    Read my novel for 'the rest of the story'.

    Thank you so very much for you time, your words, your prayers - and your encouragement. I wholly believe and have full faith that God has NO medical timelines. And I don't believe He is done with me here yet.

    God bless you, I am glad you found me on here.


  5. Hi Ronda, I was so glad to read your reply. I have read numerous testimonies of people who had "near death" experiences, and I know some may only do it for personal gain or publicity, but I also believe that most of them are telling the truth, so I fully believe that it can, and has happened to folks. I never knew about your experience, and again in your case, you have absolutely no reason to lie. I am very interested in what you experienced. So I am definitely going to get your novel.

    How I know about these things or that it makes sense to me? I had a long discussion with a previous minister of our church, who is also a very good friend of mine. We discussed the matter in depth, and even though it is very difficult for our little brain to understand all of this, the only explanation we could find for this, is that time does not exist in the hereafter. Actually it say so, not in so many words, in the bible. You have to read between the lines I believe.

    I am a sinner, but I am also a believer, but then I also am not sure that I will, because I am such a big sinner, go to heaven when I die. Yep, I lack faith....

    I would love to be able to sit with you and chat about this, obviously that is not possible, but I guess by reading your book I might find a lot of answers there.

    Please mail me a link where I can buy it online, or elsewhere. My mail address is on my blog.

    I am also glad I found you, I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason.

    Hope to hear from you soon.

    Best wishes.

  6. Colin,
    Thank you for writing all of that; and I'm sorry it has taken me a couple of days to write this response. It will probably be a bit short, as I am editing today again. Which brings me to answering your question about where you can buy my book. The question right now is WHEN - March 30, 2011. My 41st birthday. My birthday's have become milestones for me, as I was told I would not see 40. Each day is a stepping stone, that leads to the milestone. No one day is more or less important than the next.
    I will definitely keep you posted, personally, as well as on this page for everyone who is waiting for the release.
    I did not mean for my story about my experience when I was 11 to be a 'teaser' to read the book. Sorry about that. It is simply that it is too much, too detailed, and a bit gruesome to delve into on here. And that happening is a very small portion of my book.
    I would love to see you on my fB page, Colin. I post on there nearly everyday. You can also claim a book number if you wish from that site. At the top left of this page you will find the link.
    God bless you, grab hold of your faith - it is life. We are ALL sinners, but in Christ we are made clean. I know this better than many I imagine. So I don't speak those words lightly.

    I look forward to talking with you soon. Do you mind me asking where you live? Which state I mean.


  7. Hello Ronda, I have kept this page open and reloaded if often to see when you posted a reply. And no need to apologize, I thought that you being that ill blogging will definitely not be one of your priorities, which is absolutely understandable.

    No, in all honesty, your experience at 11 is not the only reason I would love to read your book, so it was not a teaser, :) your story has just touched my heart, and I cannot read your blog without getting tears in my eyes. It is such an eye opener to me.

    I do not live in the US, I live in South Africa, and more accurately in the eastern cape, in a coastal city of Port Elizabeth. I am a retired police detective.

    I will gladly join you on FB, thanks for the invitation. And thanks for the encouraging words on having faith, I do appreciate it. When I look back in my life, I can see God's hand in it, how many wrong turns I would have made had it not been for Him. Yet, in general everything has worked out just fine, up to a point in my life where I am absolutely content. It has been a bumpy ride, make no mistake, but I have reached a point in my life where I can say I am "home." Still a few things I would like to complete, but nothing serious.

    Thanks for taking the time to reply, I know it must be a terrible effort for you to do so, and I appreciate it.

    Best wishes.

  8. Colin,
    Hi again,
    as you were writing this, I was putting up my new post. It is simply a portion from the final chapter of my book. A very small portion, but something I wanted to share. The picture that I put with it, well, that is where I live. I took it with my phone - so it's pretty sketchy - but we live in a beautiful place here in the Pacific Northwest.
    I think that the post is somewhat of an answer, or an extension, to some of what you talked about above - about your life, where you've been, your steps being guided by God, and where you are now.
    You'll have to scroll down a few posts on my fB page and find where I say "welcome" to all of the countries that are represented on that page. Please comment under and tell us there where you live. Wow, never would have known you lived in South Africa. Your description sounds serene. Do you like where you live?
    As far as me taking the time to reply to comments or posts on this site or on fB...it is for you, and others like you, that I have writen this book. As well as for my children. So trust me when I tell you this is a blessing to me, nothing less.

    God bless,

  9. Wow Rhonda - you are a beautiful woman whom I can't wait to get to know. I will be praying for you and your journey...this life isn't easy for any of us, huh?

  10. No, it isn't I don't think. I don't believe it was meant to be either. Where's the growth in that? Where would faith or even a desire for God ever come into our hearts? We originally seek Him because we need Him, not because we don't. As Jesus stated: Does a doctor visit a patient who isn't ill?

    So nice to meet you here and on FB - I look forward to reading some of your blog. =)

    God bless you ~